Monday, December 31, 2012


New Year's Eve 2012 was a great day spent kayaking, walking, swimming, reading, and playing gin with some great people at Matapouri.

To bring in 2013, we sipped strawberry champagne, played a hilarious game which was a cross of charades and articulate, roasted marshmallows, and dedicated our years to God around the fire. It was very nice and thought provoking.

Hearing people's prayers give you such an insight into where their hearts really lie. To pray is one of the most genuine expressions of a person's inner workings, and it's an honour to be let into someone's thoughts and hopes in that way.

Sunday, December 30, 2012


My life was like a movie sequence this morning when Lucy texted me to say her family were leaving for Matapouri in 20 mins.

I saw the text at 11, which was 25 minutes after she sent it.

I suddenly went into a flurry of movement. Life became double speed. Clothes were flung, teeth got a cursory brushing, nails had to stay chipped, and dishes left out. I didn't walk anywhere, it was a sprint to the bathroom, kitchen, bedroom, car, front door, car, and I pealed out of the drive without so much as a goodbye to Manja who had witnessed the whole event with a very puzzled expression on her face.

Saturday, December 29, 2012


Dinner at Kirsten and Jamie's was delightful as always.

They had this candle which smelled absolutely delicious. It was pear and maple or something similar, and it tricked me on more than one occasion that there was a second or third round of dessert going.

It was so yum!

Friday, December 28, 2012


Today I packed up my desk.

It's been a relatively unemotional road thus far, but taking my pictures, notes, and cards off the wall was a bit sad. Regina made a fantastic soundtrack as I read things over and smiled with nostalgia.

I can no longer call it "my office". I certainly will miss working with such incredible people and doing all the things that I love most.

But you've got to venture out someday.

Thursday, December 27, 2012


This whole time in dreaming of Korea, I've been sure that Seoul is the only place I want to go. Unfortunately, it's completely full with a waiting list 1000 strong. The waiting lists get shorter the further from Seoul you go, but Busan is really the only option left with 100 free spaces for keen teachers like me. Now it's just hoping and praying that they'll like me enough to pick me.

Busan is the very opposite of Seoul in terms of location. I feel like God is having a good old laugh at me for trying to pick the terms of my obedience.

I do feel much calmer now that I know at least the direction I'm heading in. The stress of applying has given way to the realization that I am one step closer to actually leaving, and that is scary indeed.


Boxing day is always a lazy day. There's chocolate to consume, new toys to play with, and turkey sandwiches to munch on. All of those things happened today.

I got a new housemate as well. Lindsay has come to stay to escape her host family, who want her to babysit in her time off from nannying. Not cool. But it's awesome to have her.

We started in the kitchen with those sandwiches, talking while we ate, then we moved to the lounge and chatted while HIMYM was on, we then went back to the kitchen for dinner, then the floor to play with Manja and talk, then back to the lounge for more discussion over a movie. We talked a lot! But it was great.


Christmas Day has been a great day. I hosted my family, Nana and Poppa, and the Lloyds at my housesitting house. It was a big deal! Everything went well, despite the food being really late. But that wasn't my fault. I made a roast lamb and veges and a salad. Yum! We also had turkey and ham and pavlova, sticky pudding, lemon meringue pie, and icecream. It was a lot of food.

Everyone kind of had food comas and some slept. Poppa was straight to the couch after lunch, snoozing with his mouth wide open. Manja woke him up by jumping on him and snoozing too.

It was a really nice day surrounded with family, and friends later on. It made me think of next year and what Christmas will be like in a distant land without them.


This morning I was such a klutz. I was dropping the vaccuum cleaner on my foot, and then the baking trays on my toes, I banged my head into the basin as I stood up from the toilet, and I don't even know how that was possible!

It would have been a bit tragic if I wasn't joined in the afternoon by some lovely friends. It's crazy how much being around people makes me feel good sometimes. It was just so nice to hang out and watch Louie Giglio's Christmas message together, and eat yum stuff.

Sunday, December 23, 2012


It's an incredible thing when you can see love written all over someone's face. Jacob just couldn't help himself as he looked at Bronwyn this afternoon. They were on the altar, about to say their beautiful self-written vows and he just could not stop looking at her, all doey eyed, with a grin on his face.

When he was standing there waiting for her, he couldn't stop bouncing up and down on the spot. He was so excited. It was adorable. What a special wedding!

Saturday, December 22, 2012


It was such an honour to be invited to Lucy's birthday dinner tonight. There were only a few of us there, plus her family, and it was very special.

I got to sit at the family end of the table, which I enjoyed very much. Her family is one of my faves. Probably the best apart from my own. We talked about Korea, future, Lucy and how cool she is, and I heard some outlandish tales from Paul and Prisco.

They are very special people. I've learnt a lot about how important family is from the Collinses.

Friday, December 21, 2012


For Poppa's birthday today we went to visit them and load him with all sorts of good food.

He loved the cherries, and ate way too many which triggered a bowel movement Nana had been praying for for days (excuse the TMI)!

Anyhow, she was sitting next to Poppa, devouring a cupcake Mum had made. It was so much fun to watch. She downed it in two humungous bites. In between them, while she chewed, she had her eyes closed and murmured over and over how amazing and "light" it was.

Getting old is quite amusing from this end.

Thursday, December 20, 2012


Tate Stevens won X-Factor! I don't know what I think of it. I was a Carly fan, but he's just so much more likeable.

It was absolutely great to watch it with my brother and his friends (and Lucy). Boys are just so much funnier, and they are always having a laugh.

In the famous words of judge Britney Spears, "It was very entertaining".

Wednesday, December 19, 2012


I introduced Lucy to Freaks and Geeks today and she loved it! It's always scary when you've talked something up so much that it could ruin the experience because it doesn't quite meet the high expectations.

Although, it's pretty difficult to do that when her favourite person, James Franco is in the show. She squealed whenever he came onscreen. It was hilarious.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012


Today I baked a cake for my last staff meeting at church. I'm not gonna lie, it was a good cake, and it felt even better to not have to go to another one!

I am definitely in the swing of the lasts. It would feel a lot more comfortable if I knew I had a definite job to go to in Korea. God loves to do that though. I must have foolishly prayed for faith at some stage recently.

Monday, December 17, 2012


This morning I had a great time just pottering around the house, drinking my morning coffee, and doing the general routine with Lucy here.

It's nice to have company and just go about life together. That makes it sound like we are a couple.

She walked the dog while I did the vacuuming.

Judge for yourselves.

Sunday, December 16, 2012


So many things were remarkable about today.

There was the feeling of walking in to church in a Summer dress, minutes before the service began, which I actually got to attend! It felt so nice to just go to church and be a part of everything.

Afterwards, Amy and I hosted a BBQ at the house I'm sitting. To sit and eat at a table full of friends is a great thing. I loved having them all there and pottering around. I will get better at timing things, making sure there's enough cutlery on the table, and remembering to take the sauce out of the fridge, as I have people over more. Hopefully there will be many other barbecues this summer.

Going to Northcote tonight was also fantasic. I love their worship. It's so chilled, but they're all very good musicians so it's such a blessing always. They also pick songs which are out of the ordinary which is very refreshing.

Saturday, December 15, 2012


I had been waiting for tonight to arrive for so long that I had forgotten all about it when the day was finally upon me.

I was so confused as I answered a call from Yvette, asking about our dinner plans and telling me hers'. She must have heard the confusion in my voice as I mumbled an answer, because she said,

"Dinner... and then the show... Mary Poppins...tonight!"


It was indeed magical. There was not a single flaw in the entire performance. The children were amazing and so gifted. Mary herself was practically perfect in every way, and the other characters were all incredible.

The best scene was a tap dance in which they sang and tapped a flipping demanding number, with Bert upside down as he did a solo. I could not believe it!

Man, I wish I could be part of a production like that! Being on stage feels so good, especially when you're bowing. You could tell the cast just loved it. They couldn't hid the elation in their faces, even right at the end of their tour.

Friday, December 14, 2012


It's a strange feeling when you're in a crowd of strangers, but still have a sense of comradery and unity. That's what it felt like to watch Grease outside at Silo Park tonight.

There were a few hundred people there with blankets and pillows, to see the film projected onto one of the concrete cylinders. It was so much fun to belt out Hopelessly Devoted, Greased Lightning, and all the hits, and not be ashamed because there was a guy singing along so emphatically behind you.

It was like one big happy family, and I felt so proud to be part of it. Yay Auckland!

Thursday, December 13, 2012


Lying underneath the Telecom Christmas tree is definitely far more exciting than looking at it from the outside. On this one setting, the lights would make their way in coloured rings up towards the star in the center.

If you stared at the stationary star for a few seconds, the rings made you feel like you were in a vortex, speeding along infinitely towards a destination that doesn't exist.

It felt insane. I promise I wasn't high. I'd only had a toffee nut hot chocolate (delicious!).

Wednesday, December 12, 2012


I moved into my housesitting house tonight. As I was packing up my things, it hit me that I'm leaving so soon. I'm in this house until the end of January, and then two weeks later I'm gone to the other side of the world.

It definitely felt odd. There was more sadness than excitement at this stage. I'm sure when things are more confirmed with a school, and when I have my flights booked, it will seem all the real and like an adventure. Right now there are more nerves and stress than anything.

I know that God is at work in and through everything. It will pan out exactly as He wants it to, and that will be the best way possible.

I was reminded of that as I drove up my road, with my car packed full of my favourite possessions for the next 7 weeks, and as I came over the verge of the hill, I was blinded by a brilliant orange and red setting sun, right at my eye level.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012


I went for my first swim of the Summer this evening, followed by dinner on the beach. Although it got a bit chilly after a while, it was an amazing feeling.

The swimming season is here! This marks the start of keeping togs and a towel in the car, just in case a spontaneous dip is in order.

Monday, December 10, 2012


I bought a freaking huge box of chocolates today! It's 1.135kg of chocolatey goodness.

When I was little, we used to have Whitman's Sampler boxes at Christmas. The toffee and caramel ones were my favourite. I've dreamed about them for a long time, and when Alysha texted me about this huge box, I knew I had to buy it.

I've never seen such a huge box of chocolates before in my life, and I wouldn't have bought one quiet this big if I had the option, but $30 is not a bad price to pay for so much nostalgia (plus a whole lot of chocoalte!).

They taste the same too!


Finally the last Kids' Church has arrived. It was surprisingly less emotional than I had anticipated.

There was a moment, after Debbie had said some lovely things, when I was thanking people, that I almost got choked up. The kids and leaders all filled in a diary with their birthdays and special messages for next year. I am going to love going through it and staying connected to them through it. It's very cute.

Now what's left is to pack up my desk and office, and finish up various things before I go, which will be a bit of a mission, and I will definitely shed a tear taking all the cards, drawings, and notes from very special people, off my wall.

Saturday, December 8, 2012


Today I went and visited my nana and poppa. It was a surprise for Pops, who was having a bit of a nap. When he woke up I was there and the most beautiful moment happened. His face visibly lit up as we locked eyes. He grinned at me, which is not something that happens often anymore for him, and he didn't let go of my hand for ages.

It brings a tear to my eye, just remembering it. I haven't felt so special in a long time. Just me showing up had brightened his day. It felt incredible. We chatted and laughed all afternoon. I love hanging out at their place, and I really should go far more often. I think I am more blessed by their company than they are, mine. Especially now Nana can print off emails by herself.

Friday, December 7, 2012


Von made me smile a lot today, even when my ovaries were raging war within and my eyes felt like they were full of sand and the only reprieve was to shut them.

I like it when we hang out and just talk nonsense over a beverage. I also like sharing embarrassing moments with her, like going to pak'n'save, buying one packet of pads, then having to approach the customer service people, pads in hand, enquiring about candy for church. It was fun. We should have made the guy more uncomfortable though.


I do love Hannah a lot. I love that she's just her. There are the same protective layers like anyone else has, of course, but she's quite happy to tell you exactly how she feels in the bluntest way possible. I love it.

What I love most is that, for all the effort she puts in trying to cover up her soft side, it always comes through. We had the most terrible storm and torrential rain as I was leaving her house, and yet she walked me quite a way to my car under an umbrella. I owe her my hair!


I felt like a bit of a teenage girl again, squealing along with my life group, teasing Lee about her date in a weeks time.

At the ball she left her number anonymously on a heart shaped piece of paper for a boy and he texted her. It's quite hilarious because now she doesn't really want to go.

It was a lot of fun giggling over it with them and having her on. Sometimes it's great to be a female.

Tuesday, December 4, 2012


Today was our staff Christmas lunch and boy did I get silly. I had zero alcoholic beverages, and not even a whiff of trifle, so I do not know why. We played this general knowledge quiz and I was absolutely shocking at it. My brain kept producing the strangest answers, and even when I was right, I kept getting too excited to say the words properly. All that would come out was a huge jumble in an elevated tone. It was good fun though, even at my dignity's expense.

Monday, December 3, 2012


Tonight I absolutely crashed on the couch after work. I did not move for hours as I cropped and uploaded photos from the ball. In the same spot I ate dinner, laughed a lot at the pictures, had a glass of wine, watched a fishing show, and received some lovely messages.

I actually did not get up from the couch until bed time.

Sunday, December 2, 2012


I am absolutely floored by the generosity of so many people today. The ball came together and was a success. The murder mystery worked out, we had our car and camera, and photobooth. It was amazing.

The team mucked in and set up all afternoon, then stayed after to pack it all up. Even until 12 after an exhausting day. I am so grateful that they'd do that. Human kindness is a truly remarkable thing.

Saturday, December 1, 2012


When I woke up this morning, the day before the ball, we still had no vintage car for the crime scene, or camera for the photobooth.

 By midday, and within the space of 30minutes, both issues were solved.

After all the time spent fretting, emailing and calling up chairmen of vintage car clubs, there was one right under my nose! The perfect car. A 1930s Mercedes SSK was sitting in the Elley's garage waiting for a chance to be put on show like this.

A text to the right person landed me with the best camera for the job.

I think God was just testing my faith a bit. He knew it would all work out and somehow the men would all be at church for the drive through working bee with the solutions.


Von brightened my day today by dropping off advent calendars for my brother and I while we were out. It was a lovely surprise and completely made me grin and get warm fuzzies. I really am a gifts person.

His was a Warriors one, and mine had Disney princesses on it. The note said, "Because you are a beautiful magic princess."

Friday, November 30, 2012


Tonight we watched a movie at Laban's house to celebrate his birthday. It was great. We saw Honey, I Shrunk the Kids and it was a good level of gross and great 80s.

It was also a nice, relaxing way to spend a Friday night after a busy week, with tea and good friends.

Thursday, November 29, 2012


And so begin the festivities.

Mine kicked off with a little Christmas party at Jessamy's. We discussed favourite and least-favourite Christmas songs. The two tops of my lists are All I Want For Christmas Is You, and Do They Know It's Christmas?

You can decide which is which.

However, the first bite of Christmas mince pies made me a bit excited about the season. I love them so much!

Wednesday, November 28, 2012


This morning was our last ever Maccas girl's breakfast which brought back memories of waking up far too early, picking the girls up and heading to McDonalds for a  pre-school feast.

Unfortunately they've stopped making yoghurt berry crunch, which is a major disappointment, but it was ok because the company made up for it. I love these girls and this reminiscent breakfast made me realize just how difficult it's going to be to leave them.

Monday, November 26, 2012


Tonight I got a text out of the blue from Cindy who wanted to have some company while she ate dumplings. Of course I agreed because of my quest to become more Korean, even if it meant I had t have two dinners. I couldn't just watch her eat!

It was absolutely delicious. I love her a lot. She's so cute and she had a huge bowl of noodles and soup, plus a plate of dumplings, and sides! That's flippin admirable!

Sunday, November 25, 2012


The lasts are here.

Tonight I MC'd at the last Wave of the year, and my last for a long time. Beforehand it was chaotic as usual, mixed in with a few emotions.

I love it so much, and I really will miss being involved in a service like that. I can't wait to see how much it's changed and grown over the time I'm away though.

Saturday, November 24, 2012


Tonight I went to a party with many cool people at it. They are cool but also crazy at the same time. I had a few great but awkward conversations. And some with local musicians I have only admired from gig audiences. It was a bit surreal.

Laban did an amazing rap as a birthday speech which absolutely made the night through the roof awesome. Chuck in some Bananagrams and Boggle with people I've Facebook-stalked on many occasions, and there you have an evening I've only dreamed of.

But I'm not that creepy, really.

Friday, November 23, 2012


I've been dipping my feet in the ocean most chances I can get as of late. Until today it has always been far too cold to tempt me, so it came as a very pleasant surprise to find that my toes didn't want to recoil in sheer terror after running to the waters' edge this afternoon.

It was actually warm. WARM! It's not even Summer yet!

Thursday, November 22, 2012


A head massage is one of the most relaxing things that could ever happen to a person.

I love going to the hairdressers, mainly because I don't have to beg for one, it's just all part of the experience.

I thought I'd have to grovel today though, when she did the shampoo, did the conditioner, got out the towel and started drying, all the while trying to make conversation and break into my sacred calm-zone!

It was all to taunt me though because she put this other stuff on my scalp and then it began, the best two minutes of my day. I actually could have fallen asleep. Apparently people do sometimes.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012


This morning I was thrown in the deep end and had to lead Mainly Music without knowing the songs (lyrics, tune, or actions) and with zero experience in front of 50 0-5 year olds and their mums.

It was terrifying.

But it happened far better than expected.

I definitely had a favourite kid and I played with him, stamping our feet, for ages after the programme. Yes, he's the child of the owners of my favourite cafe, and yes I did introduce myself and let her know I recognized her. No, I'm not creepy at all!

Tuesday, November 20, 2012


It's always nice when something goes better than expected.

Telling RTK about the changes next year was something a bit scary, but they got onboard really quickly and started dreaming about what things can be like.

I love seeing them fired up and passionate, and I love getting really encouraging texts which show that they're thinking and God is planting seeds. YES!

Monday, November 19, 2012


Goodness me, did we have the meeting to end all meetings tonight at church. There were 30+ of the most involved children and youth volunteers, staff, and elders. It was all about how things are going, and plans for next year.

It was pretty intense as we talked about scrapping things, starting new ones, and all the things that aren't working.

I learnt something about myself, that I'm not as easily pushed over as I used to be. I know how to fight for what I believe is best. It's a great realization and I think it's all happened pretty recently.

Sunday, November 18, 2012


I had a lazy Sunday afternoon!

It's a very rare occasion, which made it all the more enjoyable.

I sort of didn't know what to do with myself.

My life is going to get more of them shortly.

Saturday, November 17, 2012


Oh man, this morning I had the strangest experience. I went to a bizarre Korean bazaar.

There were second hand and new clothes, many delicious lunch options, and so many books.

Priscilla introduced me to an older Korean lady who took my hand when she found out I was going to Korea, and then absolutely beamed when she found out I'm Christian. "Oh, you're going on a mission!", she said with all the delight in the world.

She then bought me a pair of jeans and a t-shirt and made me put on plastic bags as a raincoat and bonnet.

It was all a little bewildering, but very sweet.

Friday, November 16, 2012


I forgot how happy it is to see Amy Lloyd.

I really appreciated her smiling face and cute stories of ditz and drama tonight.

I love how some people have a way of cheering you up and just brightening your day.

Thursday, November 15, 2012


I clicked 'send' again this evening. This time was no less emotion-filled.

Thus far in life I have not had to make a CV. It has been glorious, just to go from job to job either with a hook up from a friend or by being approached personally.

The prospect of teaching at an amazing school on Jeju Island in Korea, or working in their Seoul offices persuaded me to cave in and make one. Seriously, this school is incredible. It's an all-girls school run by kiwis on a beautiful island, and the architecture, landscaping, tennis courts, pool, gardens, and so on make it a dream workplace. I'd go there just to hang out.

After schmoozing out a hopeful cover letter, I've just sent it in, knowing I'm pretty under-qualified, but fully capable of a few positions.

It feels good!

Wednesday, November 14, 2012


The weather has been absolutely crazy today. Just as I was about to leave work, the skies opened up and a mighty downpour began. After a lovely wee chat with Melinda, I noticed there was a patch of blue sky so I made a dash for my car.

Driving home I went through patches of sun, overcast, and showers. At one stage there was a half-rainbow, as if it was all squished up because the colours were radiant. It ended in a fluffy white cloud, and just as I was admiring it, my eyes darted towards a flash I had just seen out of the corner of my vision, in the ominous grey clouds right next to the rainbow.

I couldn't believe that I was seeing lightening at the same time as such a beautiful symbol of hope. It was very cool.

Tuesday, November 13, 2012


Tonight I put in a solid few hours finishing my application to EPIK, the teaching programme in Korea. After crafting an essay, making a lesson plan, and filling out pages and pages worth of info, it's done!

Pressing 'send' was an incredible feeling. It was a mixture of terror and excitement, with a bit of relief in there somewhere. I reallyreeeaaaalllly want to get into Seoul.

We will have to wait and see.

Monday, November 12, 2012


Tonight in the car on the way to band practice, I had a sudden urge to go on an adventure. My mind channelled it into wanting to do something afterwards. It's weird how sometimes all you want is alone, and other times all you want is company.

It never actually happened. After band I dropped Dan at football and went to the beach. I was in a new mood. I'm blaming it on one of the songs we listened to. It made me all pensive and I got that tugging feeling in my chest. It's quite a nice feeling to get. A bit inexplicable sometimes though. It's like being a little in love, and wanting to be fully in love at the same time as sadness and contentment. They're all pulling at the same time.

It's probably just me who feels like that sometimes.

Sunday, November 11, 2012



Despite not celebrating this brilliant occasion, today was great.

It was the closest to a real Sabbath day that I've experienced for a while now. I went to St. Paul's this morning and thoroughly enjoyed it. The worship completely refreshed me. It felt so good just to slip in and slip out of the service.

 And then, as if that wasn't Christian enough, tonight at Elliot and Sarah's leaving dinner, there were just a few of us left so Lucy suggested we pray for them and Pete as they embark on their mission trip. It was so good to just be hanging out and then, right there, to be able to pray. I think that's a mark of true, real friendship and God being part of life as we interact and chill with each other.

It was a great thing.

Saturday, November 10, 2012


You forget certain qualities about a person if you don't see them for a long time. Just subtle things you pick up on and eventually take for granted when you see them often. Gestures, phrases, intonation, and mannerisms fade out over time and distance.

It was so good to be reminded of all Phil's little isms tonight as we hung out for the first time in many months.

Friday, November 9, 2012


Oh man I had such a good nap today. It has been years since I have napped, but this one made up for all that. It was so necessary and waking up from it was so sweet. I felt rejuvenated and full of energy to tackle the night ahead: a family photoshoot, dinner, and then to Phil's gig.

What a great night it was, too!

Thursday, November 8, 2012


The cable car was the last thing on our to do list for Wellington, and it certainly did not let us down. It's so cute, and intriguing. It works in such an amazing way, the bottom car pulling the other one up the hill by making the most of gravity. The whole time I was freaking out. Yay for physics!

Up the top was a beautiful panorama of the city, which was best taken at a glance because the wind levels were seriously high. We found a sunny, still spot which had some trees as shields and lay down to soak up some rays and enjoy our last afternoon in Wellington.

What a fantastic city.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012


There is one piece of art in the world that I have found that really connects with me. I don't know what it is about this portrait by C.F. Goldie, The Widow. It may be the sadness in her expression, the photo-quality detail in her hands, and the glowing embers hidden inside the hut, but I could look at it for a long time.You feel like you know this lady, this widow, and feel some of her pain.

It's amazing to me that a sheet of paper, a few drops of paint, and some utensils can be used to create emotion like that.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012


Today has been a great day. It's been one of the best in my life for ages. Maybe it was the sunny disposition of a new city, maybe the actual Sun had something to do with it, probably the food and company did too.

Amy and I woke up and had a yummy breakfast and coffee at Floridita's, followed by browsing in the vintage stores down Cuba St. When lunch time rolled around, we had a great time watching the sushi go round and round the carousel at Wasabi Sushi. It was the best sushi I have ever tasted, and it wasn't just because it was like a fun game to decide whether we wanted it, and snatch it in time before it drove by and we missed our opportunity.

This was followed by a visit to Amy's workmates (sort of) at the shoe shops, and some purchasing of our own, which made me feel so pleased! Consumerism won today.

After a coffee in the cutest little place, Crumpet, and a change of clothes, it was time for a cocktail from the Embassy Theatre and the best film I've seen in a long time, Safety Not Guaranteed.

Still buzzing from the movie, we had tacos at Sweet Mother's Kitchen to finish an amazing day, full of bests.

Monday, November 5, 2012


Wellington, day 1!

By 10:30am I had consumed coffee, a donut, a veggie breakfast, half a scone, and a pot of tea.

If the rest of the week is going to be like this, I will be pleased indeed.

Other highlights of the day include:
- Laying in the sun by the waterfront, dozing off momentarily in the sun
- Seeing Matt and Melinda and hanging out with them
- Escaping the rain and finding shelter in Fidel's with hot chocolate yumminess
- Having photos to update my Instagram feed with
- Seeing many stylish and attractive people

Sunday, November 4, 2012


Worship was stressing me out bigtime today. Actually, just pretty much everything was.

I prayed that somehow, during practice, God would help me unravel it all and focus on Him. It was an occasion that I believed He could answer my prayer, but didn't really expect Him to.

He definitely did, and as practice went on I felt more and more calm. It was so great to experience peace like that, and an answer to prayer.

Saturday, November 3, 2012


I had four separate chills with people today.

1. Alysha and Cindy:
We went to Delish Cupcakes and had a delightful time talking about boy crushes, jobs, school, and cute things. I love those girls so much. Hanging out with them always makes me smile. They are beautiful.

2. Links:
This girl gives me hope. She is so onto it and passionate about the same sorts of things I am. She inspires me so much because of it. After having coffee and a free mocha tart, I came away feeling so secure, comforted, and praising God.

3. Janet:
JanJan has a way of passing on joy to whoever she meets. She's a little Korean powerhouse of giggles, stories, and gossip. We dreamt and planned about living in Korea next year. I am so excited to have a friend over there as near and dear to me as she is.

4. Yvonne and Michael:
Second day in a row and not a dull moment. We went to the beach and lay on a blanket with a guitar. They are both incredibly talented and it was perfect just laying there, listening to their harmonies and staring into the sky. The clouds formed big, puffy hexagons like on a soccer ball, with stars peering through the cracks. At one point they parted to reveal a bright moon with a yellowish hue. It was beautiful. Once again, time escaped us and I went to bed well after midnight.

What a great day.


Von and I got to catch up with Michael Lee tonight and it was great. I was only going to stay for about an hour, but as per usual when we hang out, it got late very quickly.

That doesn't happen for me with many people. It definitely does with Von on many occasions in cafes where we just talk for far too long. I think it's quite special.

Another remarkable thing about our time was the way that Michael reacted to my website idea. He was so supportive and excited which made me even more passionate and dreaming even bigger. I can't believe how amazing it is to have great friends who are so helpful and creative who just want to help me so much. I feel very blessed.


It was our church Light Party tonight, a community event which provides an alternative to Halloween.

I dressed up as Snow White and boy did the kids love it! Most of the adults were calling me Cinderella or Sleeping Beauty, but the kids would say, "Hey, Snow White!!!" excitedly as I passed. One little boy in a wheelchair was a bit awestruck as his parents told me Snow White is his favourite, so I chatted to him for a while.

It was great fun! I loved making the kids all excited and bringing joy to their little faces.

One girl from church looked up at me and asked, "Are you Snow White?" After I replied positively she looked at me closer and said with confusion, "But are you Katie too?"

It was gorgeous.

One day I might just work at Disneyland.


Tonight Melinda bought a pizza for her dinner and ate it at church. It always amazes me how generous she is with her food. Where I would guard mine with my life and glare at someone who even dares glance at it, she gives it away happily.

She ended up with only a few slices as she offered it to everyone else. She wasn't even bitter about it.

Maybe I'm just way too overprotective of my food and this shouldn't surprise me.


There's something magical about driving up my driveway with the window down and as I race up the hill, whiffs of the fresh Spring flowers fly past my nose.

It really makes me appreciate life.


Tonight was Sam's birthday, and it was a thoroughly enjoyable evening. The speeches were so touching. I teared up in quite a few. His grandma started hers' way back in 1946 and gave a brief history of Brown's Bay, ending with a short memory of Sam's birth. It was all very cute.

The whole family was very sincere, and surprisingly, so were his friends. Usually the boys make up dumb stuff to say with no preparation, and in some cases, too much alcohol. That didn't happen so badly tonight which was really nice.

Monday, October 29, 2012


Today is the day that the secret is out!

There were a few people I had to let know before I could just tell the world that I AM GOING TO KOREA.

I don't know exactly when, but it'll probably be February to teach for a year, and at the end of it I can decide my next step.

This is the most peace and joy I have ever felt in my life about anything. I know that God has been preparing the way for this over many years, especially in the past few months.

I've still got to work out what programme I'm going with and all the details, but after speaking to someone today who said I'm pretty much guaranteed a placement, I'm confident.

I just can't believe that the time is now, and something I want so bad is in God's plan for me. He is so good!


Today I picked up my guitar and played a few things.

I surprised myself by being better than yesterday!

It was a small thing, but very exciting. I even got the timing right changing from Bm to A.

It was all very cool. Fame, here I come!

Saturday, October 27, 2012


I have reallyreally appreciated people's empathy the last few days. Not sharing in my pain, but rejoicing with me.

It's annoying to not be able to tell everyone at once what's going on because I just want to declare it to the world!

But it is quite fun to tell people one by one and see how they react. Being on the receiving end of their selfless joy is humbling. I'm learning how it feels so I can be good at it when the roles are switched.


Red wine, chocolate, and chips are a great companion to chats about church, life, love, and Embarrassing Bodies (seriously, why would anyone go on that show? And why do people watch it?!).

But most remarkable was the swelling feeling that took captive my heart throughout the day. Like a balloon being filled with so much goodness that it could burst at any moment. I kept having thoughts like, "How can anyone be this happy?" and, "Why do I deserve to be blessed this much?" It was almost more than I could bear.

Friday, October 26, 2012


The sun this evening was huge! It was bright, and it really did turn everything it fell on into a beautiful shade of gold.

It was like a reflection of my life over the last couple of days. When you have so much joy, it really doesn't matter what happens during the day, you can overcome it with a smile.

Even those little things that used to make me so mad, like a vaccuum cleaner that leaves a trail of dirt instead of sucking it up, or a broken door handle just to make life awkward, become insignificant details in a day full of smiles.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012


I found Katie again!

She was hidden underneath this pile of frustration, worry, and negativity but now, after that dreaded conversation, she is free!

I have not felt so elated or so full of joy in a very long time. I want to hug everyone.

What a release. What a relief.

What a Saviour who could bless me with so much peace and joy. Thank you!

Monday, October 22, 2012


Today I found out I've grown!! About 2cm in a year! How exciting.

But also, I've been this kind of nervous/excited/anxious mess since about 2:30pm this afternoon. I've bitten off three fingernails, a habit I thought I had broken long ago, and had to cut down the rest to prevent it happening again.

I'm going crazy with all these nerves about a conversation I've got to have tomorrow. I wish I could be more straightforward but I can't.

In due time.


Tonight was such a good temperature. It was warm enough outside and the rain calmed for long enought to tempt us to walk down to the beach after brushing our teeth.

We sat there watching the waves for a while. It's strange how something so uncontrollable as water being tossed onto the shore can have such a calming effect. The rhythmic crashing brought peace and contentment.

I even felt the water and could have been tempted to swim. Possibly.


Today there are two particularly remarkable things.

The first was sitting on the same giant rock I wrote about three years ago and looking out over that same ocean. It was the same colour blue, and just as beautiful. The moment wasn't nearly as profound or private, but I just loved that the rock hadn't moved and I could come back to it and ponder. That part of the world just kept on keeping on and each year when I visit, I can depend on it to be the same.

The second is more a memory I don't want to forget. A quality that I am coming to appreciate a lot in people is general cheekiness and the ability to produce fun. Sarah is one such person, and proceeded to cause many giggles tonight at Jessi's 21st. At the door, each guest was handed a card. One person had the word, 'murderer' written on theirs. The aim was to get that card by swapping with people over the course of the night. Sarah got the great idea to start writing messages on the card. Things escalated and the cards made the rounds and various people were demanding the kisses, promised by the cards. Some had Jessi's name, and others had Dan, Lucy, mine, and even Sarah as I got her back. It was a huge laugh, made funnier by the fact that we all had to disappear during speeches. As Lucy said, "It was all part of the illusion."


There is an amazing crescent moon out tonight. It's almost unreal the way the stars are scattered around it.

It's difficult to focus on conversation or where I am walking because all I want to do is look up.


After arriving at Tawharanui, setting up, and getting cosy over dinner, I thought Dad was crazy to venture out into the freezing wind to catch a fish down the other end of the beach. Not long after he left, Mum and I were the crazy ones to follow him.

I did not end up regretting the 20minute walk at all because the stars were out in full splendor, reflected in the water as phosphorescence washed up with each wave. It is amazing to watch the particles glow in the moonlight.

To make it even better, Dad caught three fish and was very chuffed with himself.

Thursday, October 18, 2012


The little kids at Mainly Music are adorable and they brighten my day like nothing else.

One boy bounded in this morning holding a Vegemite sandwich. I commented about Marmite and a whole conversation ensued about how terrible it is that, "there's no Marmite in the supermarket anywhere!"


Today Melinda bought an iPhone! She wasn't sure, but after some persuasion she clicked that little "Buy Now" button on Trademe and it was done.

We picked it up this afternoon from the most amazing place on earth. Well, that's a bit of an exaggeration.

As we drove into this place, it looked like a big factory up ahead. I thought that this would be a place to murder someone and hide them. We were a bit worried.

The concrete walls were covered in grafitti art and there was a wall made of rusted bike wheels. Up the curving driveway there were other strange art pieces scattered in odd places. Old villas with verandahs had benches and fountains covered in crochet. It was like we had driven into an art commune.

That's actually kinda accurate, except much less scary.

It was an old winery, turned into an art estate with artist studios, performance places, galleries, theatres, and a beautiful old church.

It was so weird and wonderful.


I have had three big conversations today.

Getting out a years worth of frustration felt really really good.

I came to some decisions and felt peace from God for the first time in a long time.

It's good to pray about things that matter again and know that I need an answer.


Productivity always feels good. I had a very busy day, at work from 8:30am until 9:00pm, but at the end of it I could say I was prepared for the week.

What a boring remarkable thing. I'll do better next time.


The combination of black jeans and the warm sun is usually a good one, and this afternoon it did not disappoint.

Perhaps my lack of sleep had something to do with the comfort it bought me as I drove along the motorway.

Outside, the wind was making the world go crazy, but there was nothing but calm in my car.


It was Dan's party tonight.

All the hard work paid off. People had a good time I think and enjoyed the videos. Phew! Dan did anyway, and that's the main thing.

My own 21st was a bit overwhelming because there were all the people there to talk to and make feel welcome. But this was a whole lot of people I know and could talk to without that added pressure. It was great.

I love dancing! We danced for a long time and loved every moment.

Dancing brings people together. Or can have the opposite effect I suppose if it was inappropriate. But this was great.


Watching yourself in videos from your childhood is the craziest thing.

As I saw this little blonde girl potter around the house, putting buckets on her head, riding around in the driveway, and getting excited about using the potty, it was a strange sort of nostalgia.

I couldn't remember doing those things, but somehow there was a vague recollection of the places and props.

It was a weird experience, feeling so disconnected from my own life.


Oh wow I have not laughed so much in a long time.

It was dance practice this afternoon for Dan's birthday and it was a complete mess.

We kept making mistakes and cracking each other up.

It's so refreshing to be completely silly sometimes.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012


It's my brother's birthday today. I have written him a speech:

"I was one and a half when Daniel came into the world. As soon as I saw him two realizations came to me.

Firstly, I would have to work at retaining the affection and attention of mum and dad. He was quite a cute baby and all if a sudden I had to fight for the spot of favourite. There is evidence of this in our home videos. I tried so hard to be the star and photo bombed a lot of his screen time.

The second realization was that I had gained a blind follower, an innocent victim to manipulate into playing with me, letting me dress him up (never nailpolish!), and getting me things I couldn't reach. He did very well under my instruction, even stealing the spatula, mums discipline device from the kitchen one day and hiding it under the bed.
He also was quite handy as a scapegoat. I think quite a few of my tellings off went to him. He would bawl and mum would give him a big hug and tell him she loved him. I used to hate that so much. I wanted justice... for him.

I did actually realize a third thing later on. I may have upstaged Dan in the home videos, but he really did upstage me in life. He is so smart, helping me with homework when I was two years above him at school, he lived my 7th form dream of being a student rep and a lead in the musical, and I don't know a single person who doesn't like him. Somehow Dan charms his way into making us all pick him up, buy him food, lend him assignments... He's got us all around his little finger.

It's not all take and no give though. He is one of the kindest, most caring people I know. Most brothers wouldn't bring their sister a glass of water after she hollers up the stairs at him, or dance like fool with her around the kitchen, or practice her worship set with her for ages even if he's not playing it that Sunday.

Dan and I have always been good friends. Over the years there has only been on habit of his that has really got on my nerves. I've only come to appreciate his constant, confident, and extremely loud singing recently. I think mainly because his taste in music has improved a bit from Nickelback.

Each week there was a new theme song which we heard screamed down the hall or up the stairs or over the top of the radio in the car. There were songs for the shower (the neighbours love him for that),songs for dancing, songs for when he got home, songs for sound checks, and songs for driving. He is always singing.

Everyone knows it, so we are going to watch this video mashup of all his favourites, but first, Dan I am so proud that you're mu brother. You are becoming a young man and it's so exciting to see you take more responsibility, and grow in integrity and all those things a man should be. 

Happy birthday. Love you."


Oh my word I have danced so much today.

It's been fun planning my brother's birthday party and this dance is one of the final pieces to come together. Unfortunately it is mighty difficult.

Dan is pretty talented when it comes to pretty much everything, but especially dancing. He can shuffle faster than most, shake his hips like Shakira, and coordinate his hands, feet and face at the same time.

Aaaaand Mum gave me the task of putting together a dance of all his moves to perform at his 21st.

Meg, Reece, and I got together this afternoon to turn it into one dance. Elliot came too but gave up when we got to the shuffling section. I don't blame him either. Those moves are difficult.

There is no way we'll ever look as good as Dan doing it all but I hope people can at least recognize some parts and recall him doing them on the dancefloor.

But honestly, I've never exercised so much in one day.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012


I had to move out of the Collins' house today. It was a very sad time because I have loved the past three weeks. They have been exactly the right amount of change I needed to stay on track with life.

I was sorry to say goodbye to chats before bedtime over cups of tea, my double bed with the sun streaming on, playing games and getting cuddles with Tui, baking and cooking whatever we liked, and of course the company of Wiz and Lucy and other guests.


I love anticipating eating something delicious when I know exactly how it is going to taste. You dream about it all day and then you take that first mouthful and it is exactly as it should be.

Jeyukbokkeum, you never disappoint.


Today I caught up with school friends for dinner. It was quite refreshing to see them.

Somehow the topic of human trafficking and sexual slavery came up and we talked about how upsetting it all is. We've never really talked about things as real as that in the world so it was really good to chat.

I also appreciated the input of my non-Christian friends and seeing their reaction. I'm so used to hearing Christian answers and comments that it's easy to lose touch with how the majority of people hate to see these things just as much. How could you not??

Friday, October 5, 2012


When Alysha arrived tonight to Cindy's house I got all excited and gave her a pretty good welcome.

I could tell she was pleased to be greeted with surprising enthusiasm. She smiled sheepishly and accepted my hug.

I guess it was good on both the giving and receiving ends.

It was just one of those momentary encounters that are easy to forget, but worth noting.

Thursday, October 4, 2012


I made lots of small talk again tonight! It was fun getting to know more about this particular girl because she's always been in the peripheries of my friendship circles, but I've never had a conversation with her.

Along with all the small talk, there was a lot of deep conversation. When we got home, Lucy and I talked for a very long time and I really needed it. Her advice and perspective has helped me so much. Sometimes it's difficult to speak about real life things, but we all need to do it. It's part of friendship and general humanness.


Tonight I did something scary. I went into the elder's meeting to share about what it is I do at church, my limitations, pressures, and workload.

I was pretty terrified. I feel like I was ok beforehand, but during it, I just started shivering. I wasn't sure what was happening, but it made it difficult to look confident and to speak with a clear voice.

The shaking happened all the way home, and was only cured by a nice cup of tea.

Sometimes tea is the best cure.


Last night I set my alarm as usual.

This morning my alarm went off at 7am as usual on a Sunday, but I felt so tired. I put it down to being up so late the night before and got on with my day.

The morning passed by as usual, besides my car clock being an hour behind for some reason. I figured the battery must have done something weird when I turned it on. My car is slowly dying after all.

At Nana and Poppa's this afternoon, Dan remarked about their clock being an hour behind. I was surprised and shared about my car as well, laughing that the clocks must have had a conspiracy and stolen an hour from us overnight.

It was banter as usual.


Fast forward to 10pm, Lucy asks, "does anyone have any good daylight savings stories?"

The penny drops.

We all laughed at my ignorance and I thanked God for my phone which changed automatically.


Tonight I went to a party I didn't particularly want to go to. Mainly because I've liked staying home a lot recently, and there would be a lot of people there that I only sort of knew.

These days I doubt myself a lot in social situations, especially making small talk and not being too weird. But I am starting to have more evenings like this one that I walk away from the party feeling excited and energized by meeting new people.

I am so glad I went, not only for the confidence boost and great conversation, but because a couple of girls prayed for me and it was much needed.

To make it even better, one of the girls I had never met, and the other I had only spoken to a few times before. 

Sunday, September 30, 2012


Tonight was the gig of my life.

Tom Lark
Farah Loux
Great North

I thoroughly enjoyed every moment of it, especially Tom Lark because, well, he's as fun to look at as sing along to.

Besides the fact that they are all great bands, two factors influenced the enjoyability by a substantial amount.

1. I haven't been to a gig in a very long time. It used to go to gigs at least once a week, but not anymore. Although my bank account is happier, my heart is not.

This was such a great gig to fill the emptiness inside. It had all the makings of the good old days such as the fantastic music, the venue (Kings Arms) with the perfect amount of grungy memories of intoxicated boys forming a pit during Bryan's solos, and catching up unexpectedly with friends from many different places.

2. I had a few great encounters with people. Conversation just seemed to flow. Sometimes it can be awkward because there are so many people I kind of know, but tonight it was not scary at all.

I love when people are suprisingly friendly. Not in a creepy way, but just in a "we've talked a few times and I'm not uncomfortable with taking it to the friendship level". It can be a bit weird sometimes, navigating that boundary between aquaintance and full blown friend, but it's always a relief when someone breaks that ice.

Tonight it was the form of a hand on the waist and a gentle sway to the music.

Don't be too excited. It was a female.


Today I recreated the Collins' house on The Sims. I was pretty proud of how it turned out. I used to love playing The Sims. I would spend hours doing it, but I was never great at designing houses.

This one is fantastic though. It is a replica of a real house, but I will still take full credit.

I love playing games of the past. Sometimes they don't match up to the fun level nostalgia gives them, but the fact that I was up well past midnight playing it means that this one is still as great as ever.

Saturday, September 29, 2012


I woke up feeling pretty gross today. You know, the kind of sick that has you feeling your heartbeat in every muscle as it resounds from your head to your toes through the shivers and aches.


So I wasn't really looking forward to lifegroup tonight. I love the girls but the prospect of talking for a couple of hours with a sore throat wasn't very inspiring. I had a pray on the way that it would turn out better than I expected and it really did.

There were only a few girls there, but I feel like we had good conversations and I really enjoyed hanging out with them. I came home with a big, happy heart.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012


Mama Heng made me laksa tonight. It was so delicious. I loved every moment of it. And there was a lot of it!

It was perfect. The perfect hotness and ingredients. The tofu was freaking delicious!

And the best part was that she loved that I loved it and even told me how to make it. Yay! Points with Mama Heng!


For the first time in a very long while I had nowhere to go and no one to see, apart from an appointment with  the couch.

It was an amazing feeling to just sit and relax all day long, and even all night.

Monday, September 24, 2012


Today was the biggest mission of my life. That was an exaggeration. But there was a lot to achieve even without the added pressures of tiredness and emotion that I was experiencing.

That's why it was surprising that Kids' Church went extremely well. I can't pinpoint a specific reason, only that I was encouraged by many little things including a very cute activity sheet made for me by one of the six year old girls.

It was evidence that what we've been putting all the effort into by trying to get parents to do stuff at home with their kids is paying off. She is getting it.

If you'd told me 2 years ago that this particular girl would be responding so well, I would have stared at you in disbelief. There were tantrums and dramas each Sunday for a while as we tried to help her settle in.

But something is working and she is loving it. And I am honoured to be part of her journey of faith and discovery.

Sometimes it's hard to get up on a Sunday morning, but these little things make it worth it.

Here's her activity page (we've been learning about respect and I've been dressed up as a pilot each week to help make the message engaging by pretending we're on a plane):


It has been years since I have had a sleepover. That's why it was so fun to talk until the wee hours with Von this morning.

After 12 is always the best time for honest conversation with darkness as a shield and a teddy named Harreh for comfort.

Sometimes it's refreshing to get your guts out.


This morning I had a date.

With Sarah.

It was so lovely to see her face! Even if it was through a computer screen. It's so much better to talk as opposed to typing messages to each other. I'm not the most reliable at that.

But I sat outside with the sun on my back and we chatted about her adventures and life in general.

Such a moment of contentment.


The Songwriter of the Year finals were on tonight and once again I was so proud to know a couple of the talented musicians.

This year it really felt like they were just having so much fun up there. It was great to be drawn in to their excitement and passion like that. One of the guys had even coreographed a little dance for his chorus! It was hilarious.

And I think Matt Nanai should have got an award because he was practically in everyone's band and he wore an alligator costume. PLUS his harmonies are amazing.

That's enough gushing over someone I have never met.


Staying at the Collins' has been a whole lot of fun. Tonight was my turn to make dinner and I thought I'd give Dak Galbi a go.

I was quite nervous because they're not wannabe Koreans like Melinda or I so I wasn't convinced they'd love it.

But even with a couple of missing ingredients and a bit of improvisation it turned out to be flippin delicious.

I'm not the most confident cook so it was a huge relief that they seemed to love it, even going back for more. That's a sure sign of success. It felt good.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012


Today I cut Melinda's hair! It was the first time I had ever done anything of the sort, apart from a few shoddy self fringe trim attempts.

It came out pretty good!

I was more than a little proud of my efforts.

Please form an orderly queue because I will cut your hair for free.

Monday, September 17, 2012


This morning I woke up at the Collins' house in my beautiful double bed.

I made a cup of tea and toast and went back to bed to read and enjoy the sunlight which was streaming in.

I was so content right there. When I own a home, I am going to have a bedroom which faces the morning sun and relish those moments.


This evening I looked out the window to see the sun setting in the distance.

In the foreground, the mist was doing crazy things and there was layer upon layer of trees, forming a 3D pop-up landscape. It really was quite breathtaking.

Sunday, September 16, 2012


Football is a great game to watch. It is even better when you have friends playing in the cup final.

It was an intense nail-biter of a game which went into extra time with the winning goal, a penalty to the Albany United Africans (my friends).

It was fantastic! I love seeing them all so happy.

We Gangnam Styled at the end of the game, like true champion supporters.


Nana has learnt to text. Often.

After receiving a few not-so-subtle requests for me to visit them, thinly masked in offers of pumpkin soup, I put on my granddaughter of the year hat and went to their apartment.

Poppa wasn't in the best shape. He felt nauseated and looked worn out. He didn't even enjoy his Jelly Tip!

Nana had just the trick to cheer him up though. She started reminiscing and surfacing fond memories of school days and how she used to admire him.

It is really strange how a memory can be so dear to one person, but not another. For example, Nana recalled a time when Poppa helped a lady and her child onto a bus. He folded the pram for her like a true gentleman and lifted the child onboard. Nana, watching on, was so impressed and admired him for it.

She still remembers it, and it was a very long time ago. By the way she told the story I knew it was so fond to her, but Poppa couldn't remember it at all.

It seems so insignificant, but to her it was important.


I approach mentor meetings both with a sense of dread, and excitement. Mostly it depends on the space I'm in, whether or not I have anything on my chest that I've been wanting to rant about, or if I'm feeling confident and just like having a chat.

This week it was a mixture. The questions were quite probing and I knew it would open up some things, but God intended them to be laid bare so that's the way it was.

It was relief mostly at the end of it. And it's good to be on the same page.

It's really special to have that trust to share what's really going on and see your situation from another perspective.


This morning at Mainly Music I just realized how special it is to get to know the beautiful families for a few years in a row and to see babies go from just-born to ready for school and be on that journey with many of the mums.

It's beautiful to witness kids growing, week after week, not just in size, but social skills and maturity as well.

Plus some of them are so darn cute.

Thursday, September 13, 2012


You know when you wait in anticipation for something for months, and as it gets closer to the date, you get more and more excited and your expectations are built up higher than a skyscraper?

Then it all comes crumbling down around you as the thing you were anticipating turns out to be miles below the bar you set for it?

Well, that didn't happen tonight.

Moonrise Kingdom, the Wes Anderson film has been on my 'to watch' list for a very long time. It seems like forever ago that I first saw the trailer, and since then I'd been quite excited.

Wes Anderson is one of my favourite directors. The way he takes reality and adds just the right amount of quirk is perfection. His characters are always endearing, the settings quaint, and the editing is nothing but fun.

As soon as the opening sequence started, I knew Moonrise Kingdom was going to be a treat. The way he shot different rooms of the house in a cross-section, like a dollhouse was genius. We panned and tracked from room to room and caught a glimpse of the characters with a beautiful piece of music playing on the family's coveted record player.

It was delightful.

This isn't meant to be a film review though.

I was just in awe of the creativity and mastery of Wes Anderson's filmmaking.

It was quite spectacular.


I think this counts as today because it was after midnight.

So Amy was at my house and it was late. We felt like dancing so we went upstairs and flicked through the music channels to find the most adequate soundtrack.

What ensued would have been hilarious for the onlooker.

We both went into our private worlds of dance. With serious faces we were twisting, jumping, and twirling.

A few songs in, I snapped out of it and realized how ridiculous we were and just started laughing.

It was a fantastic moment.

We didn't particularly care so we just kept on boogie-ing.

Wednesday, September 12, 2012


Tonight I was brave and did something I haven't done since high school - I acted in a play.

It was a rather terrifying experience as I kept procrastinating learning lines and practising at home.

I've been so nervous the past couple of weeks because of it, even feeling sick from the stress.

It all turned out alright this evening though. I didn't forget any lines or blocking, and I think I said them with reasonable conviction. No Oscar nominations, but it was good enough.

I had to be a pregnant woman, which was a bit of a challenge. I'm pretty sure I never want to actually be pregnant after that. Yes, it's a miracle and an honour, but having a beachball under my dress was discomfort enough!

I'm sure I'll change my mind at some stage.

In the middle of the performance the weirdest thing happened. It was like I was outside of myself, looking on. I just thought about what would happen if I just stopped acting and walked off, and imagined all of the reactions. I had to snap myself back to what I was doing and remember my next lines. It felt so odd.

But yes. Acting is absolutely nerve-shattering, but it's good fun.


At dusk this evening, the sky was the most vibrant shade of orange.

It was so bright that gold reflected off the pools of water collected on the deck.

It was a beautiful moment to behold with the silhouettes of the trees in stark contrast to the bright sky.

I could have admired it longer if it wasn't so freezing outside.

Saturday, September 8, 2012


Bowling is one of the most fun activities you can do.

It really does bring people together.

Tonight, Amy and I went bowling and it was just so fun. We shared disappointments and highs together as gutterballs were followed by strikes.

We danced, squealed with delight, shook our booties, and high fived.

What a great game!


It's good to have real conversations.

To go past the surface into stuff that's ordinarily difficult to say.

Tonight such a conversation took place and it was refreshing.


Tonight after lifegroup I went to Von's.

We took little candles into her spare room and lay in the darkness singing and finding words.

She played chords and we just sang what came in the hopes that it would form some sort of actual song.

It felt good.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012


Don't some people just make you happy to be around?

I found another such person and she brightened my day today.

Sometimes she thinks she's a dolphin.

She loves to dance, even if her style is a little crazy.

She speaks in a very cute accent which is fun to imitate.

Her name is Mika and I like being friends, even though she doesn't like Beyonce.

Monday, September 3, 2012


Oh boy did it rain today!

There was a huge pool at the bottom of my driveway which splashed over the roof of my car as I zoomed through it.

Further down the road I saw a bigger, more formidable puddle which would have been fun to drive through, but as the water was above the top of my wheels I thought I better not!

I took a slight detour and was on my way to work, mapping out a route in my head to make sure I avoided valleys and possible floods.

It's crazy how weather can interrupt our days sometimes. This was just a small reminder of how powerless we are in the face of nature.


I think it's time for me to start documenting the remarkable in my life.

Tonight it was at church.

As I prayed with Jessamy and Mika something broke within me. In a good way.

I've been feeling lately that I just want to get back to what it was like as a teenager in my relationship with God.  There used to be passion, fire, moments of abandon, and an unwavering desire for Him.

I want that again.

I am going to pursue that instead of settling for the excuse that as your faith matures, you lose many of those emotional moments.

Codswallop! Bring back the tears and His tangible presence.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Summer as it should be.

I want to go back to the best Summer ever.

It was hot like Summer is meant to be.

Getting in the car was like entering a sauna. We shut all the windows and turned off the air con to see how long we could last in the suffocating heat.

Our diets consisted of mainly lemon iced cupcakes, freshly baked while we played round after round of Gin.

We swam day after day, night after night. Togs remained in the car, "just in case" we received a text about hanging at the beach, and we usually did.

New friends were made every day, and distant ones became the closest. Many of which remain until this day.

We went to gigs once a week and watched our newfound friends astound and inspire crowds. We wondered how they got so good and how lucky we were to know people who could make such beautiful music.

We didn't sleep much because we didn't have to get up early for anything in particular. The only thing dragging us out of bed in the morning was the promise of a new adventure. Whether it was Mt. Victoria, op shops, the beach, cards, or even just hanging out, it didn't matter.
We would make it fun.

And we always did.

Take me back.