Laying on the deck reading a book, my exposed skin baking under the midday sun, I was so grateful for the extended summer we are having.
It felt like mid-January; not a care in the world except the wasps zooming about and making sure that I changed positions enough to avoid a crick in the neck.
One day I'll look back at this time, envious of the peace. I had better make the most of it.
Monday, April 6, 2020
Saturday, April 4, 2020
04.04.20
Sam and I have been blown away by all the people who have shown us love via message and even practical gifts.
To be honest, before all of this I felt pretty low - it seemed like all my interpersonal connections were becoming weaker as weeks slipped by without seeing friends, which was mainly my fault.
It was easy to feel forgotten or isolated (hah!).
It just took something bad happening to feel the support and love of so many people and it was overwhelming.
Some friends rallied together and dropped off a lovely message and some Countdown vouchers, another got my favourite coffee shipped to me as a treat, family started a rainy day fund in case we need it, and even the neighbour dropped off some freshly baked bread.
It's hard to feel alone when people do such kind, selfless things for you.
I've learnt the power of actions as well as words and I will definitely pay it forward one day when someone needs something that I can give.
To be honest, before all of this I felt pretty low - it seemed like all my interpersonal connections were becoming weaker as weeks slipped by without seeing friends, which was mainly my fault.
It was easy to feel forgotten or isolated (hah!).
It just took something bad happening to feel the support and love of so many people and it was overwhelming.
Some friends rallied together and dropped off a lovely message and some Countdown vouchers, another got my favourite coffee shipped to me as a treat, family started a rainy day fund in case we need it, and even the neighbour dropped off some freshly baked bread.
It's hard to feel alone when people do such kind, selfless things for you.
I've learnt the power of actions as well as words and I will definitely pay it forward one day when someone needs something that I can give.
Friday, April 3, 2020
03.04.20
Today the sun came up as it always does, and with it came the fresh promise of a new day to fill with anything I wanted to.
It was actually a relief not to feel trapped in my little home office when there were so many more enjoyable things to be done around the place.
I raked up grass, got stuck into the weeds in a neglected area of the garden, and baked some delicious cookies that I had been meaning to make all week.
It was the perfect day of freedom to potter about and do whatever I like.
It felt like a gift.
It was actually a relief not to feel trapped in my little home office when there were so many more enjoyable things to be done around the place.
I raked up grass, got stuck into the weeds in a neglected area of the garden, and baked some delicious cookies that I had been meaning to make all week.
It was the perfect day of freedom to potter about and do whatever I like.
It felt like a gift.
02.04.20
Today has been surreal in a way which I have never experienced before. I have never truly been in shock until today.
At 9am this morning, our CEO delivered the news via Zoom meeting that Bauer NZ was closing with immediate effect.
We didn't see it coming. Sure, maybe a pay cut or restructure, but to just cut it all off was a surprise.
That's an understatement.
I'm sure this must be the first stage of grief. I'm waiting for the sadness and anger. But mostly it's just a strange void where emotion should be.
At 9am this morning, our CEO delivered the news via Zoom meeting that Bauer NZ was closing with immediate effect.
We didn't see it coming. Sure, maybe a pay cut or restructure, but to just cut it all off was a surprise.
That's an understatement.
I'm sure this must be the first stage of grief. I'm waiting for the sadness and anger. But mostly it's just a strange void where emotion should be.
Wednesday, April 1, 2020
01.04.20
At 9:50am I found myself standing in the morning sun stalking wasps to discover their nests.
Everything was still besides the intermittent buzzing, the last of the confused crickets chirping, and the hum of cicadas.
It's hard to believe that there is anything not right with the world.
Everything was still besides the intermittent buzzing, the last of the confused crickets chirping, and the hum of cicadas.
It's hard to believe that there is anything not right with the world.
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